i don't know whats going on anymore. i don't know whats going on with us and i dont' know whats going on with me. i'm so confused. i don't know if i'm okay or if somethings wrong. but i do know how much i love you, and that i could never feel the way i do for you for anyone else. your my best friend and the only man i ever want to marry. your my world and i never want to lose you. i'm just afraid of what ever may be happening and i don't know what i'm supposed to do. it hurts when you ask me whats wrong after i've already asked you/begged you not to. it scares me to death that i don't know whats wrong with me and you pleeding for me to tell you just makes it hurt worse. please listen to me when i ask you to just leave it alone for a while. when i figure it out i will tell you. i'm not keeping anything from you. i promise you that i dont' want to be with anyone else and i'm not looking or anything! your the only guy for me. but i dont' know whats wrong with me and i need to be left alone about it until i figure it out. please understand. and please know that i love you with all of my heart and like everything else, we will get through this. we just need to be strong. i love you!!! don't doubt that! -love-brandi